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Fountainhead..Of Joy

A Bible for me in short I would say...And this is what precisely gives the answers to the previous posts in one way or the other..

If we are egoist why not say it? If we are working to a self-goal even being a parasite, why not say it??Whats the fear? why pseudo altruism?? I think ,our situation is worse than the book's plot!! The kind of life we have achieved and living is so full of dependency, is so full of "Banner"!! It's so scary!! We see fight of Individualism and Collectivism here..Instead we are seeing fight of different levels of collectivism in our new world of 21CN..

Maybe we can't map the book directly into our lives where creativity n the exact happiness is nil. But how I remember seeing one creater's life exactly messed by surrounding Peter Keatings..true that he didnt have quite the integrity n courage to dynamite the so called self-less creatures around him...

U know what's the prime fear now? That all of us are not individual Toohey ,Keating, Wynand or Roark...we have resulted being a mixture of all with more Keating n so less Roark...that's what is dreadfull..Though I understand what a world full of Roarks would result in..maybe that's not what the nature can support and hence the balance..But couldnt we stop lying to ourselves and be clean..just clean..Integrity is what it is called...believeing in belief, the power of self, not by depending on the power of the rest of the world and the direction in which the mass is collecting. Altruism would be a by product..We cant call Roark not to be selfish in our language. Had it been true he wouldn't have ever designed Keating's projects...

I felt crying for Gail..It was more than the happiness I felt for Roark. That I think is because I could see a part of myself and some others in him...I felt bad for him,me,us...How we lose ourselves in the hands of second handers just out of fear or conviction!

How we seek self-respect as we lack it...and cover that up with pretense...How every one of us is trying to find in others as we lack it? Why do we give the chance to lack in ourselves,why can't we gather energy, love, hope, happiness in us, why do we need to talk about "they"?? why do we love gossips and lackness in others and feel satisfied of being better or equal? Can't we be just as simple and find joy in ourself?? Joy of existence? Or joy of being able to have the sense of reasoning, to be able to breathe, to live ?...Just a "may be"....

Comments

Anonymous said…
Did not understand anything....seriously......sorry about that.
Anonymous said…
You have misused the term "we" in this blog.Instead of saying all negative stuffs about "we" ,you should have used "most of us" or something analogous.
By using "we" you are trying to generalize all people having all the negative qualities that you have discussed.
All people are not same .
What do you say?
Monalees:) said…
Probably yes..but this I had written based on seeing people around and hence generalised...

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